2nd September.

So yesterday ended up shit, today won't end up much better so I am going to really push the exercise over the weekend.
I have been really good so far today:
Breakfast:
Slim fast meal bar: 210kcal
Cup of Tea: 18kcal

Lunch:
Tesco fruit pack: 147kcal

Snacks:
Slim fast snack bar: 95kcal
Snack a jacks: 89kcal

Total: 540kcal

If only I could stay at that...
But we are going to a friends tonight so I can get my hair done and we will have takeout which I will argue with D but he will say he will 'treat' me(its just after pay day and I have £2.05 in my purseand nothing in the bank...unusal for me these days)...and so it will carry on and I will eat takeout and feel bad.
However D is working lates as of tomorrow so I can have tiny/no dinner in the evening, and go to the gym and do P90X twice...so I will push this...I haven't weighed all week becuase stupid period has come on...and it always makes my weight do werid things. Hopefully it will be gone by Monday and I will be able to get that back on track.
Holiday is 3 weeks today.
I wont be wearing a bikini now as the one I ordered has got lost in the post and I have been refunded, but I forgot about the ebay seller fees I have to pay...so that will cover some of it...But hopefully I can make some money from more eBay stuff I am putting up over the weekend, but it probably wont be in time to order the bikinis into the UK from America...oh well...I will still be too fat to wear them anyway...
Must Push Harder...

EDIT:
So we ended up having pizza... I tried to get a small but they didn't do the one I wanted in a small, and I didn't want to take ages trying to find a different one...so I thought I will only eat half - that will be fine...didn't work...I ate the whole medium chicken and mushroom Papa Johns pizza...I felt horrid, I felt full and greasy...
But on the plus side I have pretty hair again. I do love K she is a fantasic hairdresser and I always have a really good chat with her. She is one of D's old friends.